Dream Diary #2
Have you ever woken up from a dream feeling anxious or guilty? That is how I felt this morning when I awoke thinking that I was going to go to jail. You see, I had dreamed that I had kidnapped someone and was going to get caught, mainly because I could not go through with the plot. It was a good five minutes after I was awake before I convinced myself that it was all a dream.
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All I remember about the dream is that myself and a guy from church kidnapped a well known female acquaintance. We were holding her hostage in a hotel room and were using her as leverage and/or ransom. Once, when checking on her, I caught her in an escape attempt. So I zip tied her arms behind her back and stuck red duct tape over her mouth right before she asked me, “Why?” I assured her everything would be alright, but the look on her face was as if she thought we would never let her go alive (i.e., she’d seen our faces). Around about this time I woke up.
What I can piece together as a potential influence for this dream is that I was watching the first season of 24 right before I went to bed. In Episodes 3 and 4 (2:00am – 4:00am), Dan and Rick kidnap Jack’s daughter, Kim, but she escapes only to be recaptured, restrained and delivered to Ira Gaines. Combine this with the narcotic painkillers I was on for my kidney stone and…uh…well, it sounds a bit more plausible…but still pretty weird.
About the only point I can think of for sharing this, other than to show how strange dreams can be, is to say that not even your dream life is safe from sin and guilt. I was certainly relieved to realize that I had not committed any wrongs in actuality. However, was the way I dreamt and later felt not symptomatic of the depravity of my heart?
I have woken up guilty, but most recently I have been waking up with terror in my heart. Bad dreams- like being robbed or realizing your kid has been kidnapped- seem to be on par with me sleeping badly.
“However, was the way I dreamt and later felt not symptomatic of the depravity of my heart?”
Yes.
I don’t often remember dreams, but when I do it is because the dream haunts my waking conscience for its content. Dreams can be very powerful reminders of the depth of our depravity and the fact that when awake we are often either unaware of our capacity (will?) to sin or have convinced ourselves of the lie that we have said depravity/sin under control. Praise God for speaking reminders to us through our dreams.
B
I can’t get past the fact that the tape was red. See, I would have assumed that you would use duct tape. But it was red. Perhaps you think victim’s mouth has been somehow silenced by legalism or beaurocracy?
Man, you thought that was a dream??… we have been looking for you at work all day.. You need to turn yourself in.
Oh, Rob, you shouldn’t do that to him in his drug induced state. What you should have done is just show up at Scott’s office in uniform and tell him you’re there to take him in. But a video camera should definitely be involved.
So, I was thinkin’, Scott. Maybe you are concerned that your victim doesn’t talk enough and needs to speak her mind more often.
(oh, man, I just gave myself serious giggles with that one!)
I just googled dream interpretation. I found this which interprets dreaming about commiting a crime:
It looks like you need to curb your toungue…hehe.
@Batch: Well said!
@Willa: Could it be any more obvious who the object of the dream was?
@Rob: Well, I never said I got caught (woke up too soon), but it is true that I need to watch my tongue and temper (two of my many weaknesses).